Just Like a Child

So this whole 'growing up' thing is so far a giant pain in the derierre. It seems everything gets a whole gosh darn more complicated in the first year out of high school! But I knew that already.
So I am officially now an adult! I've got my income taxes all done (with the help of my wonderful accountant!), post-secondary plans figured out (though the acceptance letters keep pouring in), and a place of my own (which I have to share, WHEN we actually live there!).
Two in and we are still homeless. Can you believe it? Our landlords have been in an out every day and taken on the labour of fixing everything themselves, but seriously, that is just how bad the flood was. However, they did put the carpets back in today! The walls are still drying out though; w should be able to move back in by mid to late week. I can't believe it. We should have a re-house warming party!
I got a package in the mail this week that told me that UBC had accepted me; I found this quite contradictory to their previous rejection letter. It seems as though UBC wants me to attend their school...in Kelowna rather than in Vancouver (where I wanted to go). Their sudden and unanticipated acceptance, however, does not alter my plans for the fall: I'm going to UCFV. This is all just getting so confusing though!
Today was the first semi-rain storm of the year, and it was beautiful. Freezing cold and half snow mind you, but gorgeous none the less. I was sitting in the empty coffee shop watching the little kiddies run around in the rain when I suddenly realized how much I missed being a kid. Not that life isn't fun now, but when I was younger, I seemed to see life differently. I've noticed that I have started veiwing situations, realtionships, random moments...everything, so selectivly. You know, like selective hearing, only instead of hearing, it is my sight which is affected. Stupid I know, but hey, I am a human being.
Most of it stems from a series of hard 'life-lesson' moments last summer, after which I decided (from some ridiculous reason) that life really wasn't as good as my 'naive' mind thought it was. Well, now, almost a year later, I am sitting here thinking, "What if it was my 'naive' mind that had it right?" Life really is, or is at least meant to be as breath-taking as I had thought it before. The days when my mind seemed a lot clearer (though not always happy) were the days before I decided to filter what I saw, heared, felt, said, or did. I guess it might just be part of that desire to control, or feel like I have the possibility of controlling what happens to me in life and where I ultimatly end up. I don't do I?
I think I had a revelation today. I am so... adult!